Friday, July 8, 2011

Mommy of 2 Under 2!

So I'll get right into it. This morning, before my feet touched the floor, I was changing Allison's diaper. Hailey was sitting on the bed with me, probably trying to get into Matt's night stand (her favorite thing to do). I'm not sure exactly what happened, but all I know is that I looked down and I was literally COVERED in baby poop. All over my arm, shirt, pants...had no idea a baby could poop that much. Hailey looked over and says..."Uh-oh, yucky poop!" After I let out a little whiny, "ew," I laughed. This is my life.

What can truly prepare you to be a mom...nonetheless a mom of two young ones? I'm always tired, always cleaning, always cooking, always changing a diaper...and always more in love than I've ever been. The other day I was doing my hair in the bathroom. There was a dirty diaper on the counter. I then went to get dressed, and there was a dirty diaper on the dresser. I then went into the living room, and alas, two dirty diapers on the couch! You're probably thinking, "Throw those away!!." My intention is always to throw them away right away, but before I can get to it Hailey is drawing sharpee on the tv (true story), or Alli is hungry. It's a whirlwind in our house, and I love it.

My weeks greatest moments are as follows:

  • I got to spend an hour alone Sunday morning, and was able to play piano for the worship team last minute. I can't tell you how good it felt to just be ME for a moment!

  • I successfully took both girls grocery shopping at Walmart BY MYSELF. Huge accomplishment. I wore Alli in the Baby Bjorn and fed Hailey so many berries I thought she would be sick! (and bought her a new $5 baby).

  • I went to Weight Watchers, and took both girls! They were great....and I lost more weight!

  • I took a 2 hour nap yesterday! woop woop!

Still trying to figure out exactly what it is going to look like when I go back to work in late August, but for now, enjoying every moment I have with these little ones!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

My Thoughts on the Anthony Trial

So I know I don't update this blog very often...and usually when I do update it's about the kiddos...but something is on my mind that I wanted to share.

As most of you know, Casey Anthony was charged "not guilty" yesterday. I have to be honest that I did not follow this case very closely, but judging by the response of the world, many thought her to be guilty of killing her child. Now, as a mom, I literally cannot fathom that anyone would hurt their is seriously beyond me. I watched as the jury read off the counts she was charged with and wondered if maybe they felt that way it was just not possible that a mother could do that to her child. That maybe the world had not gotten that bad after all.

"On the charge of first degree murder....we find the defendant NOT say we all."
"On the charge of child endangerment, we find the defendant NOT say we all."

One by one, they deemed her NOT GUILTY. I love justice, and as a Christian, I know that my God loves it even more. I know that one day that little girls death will be justified, whatever the truth is. But, as they read off these counts, I pictured myself in Anthony's shoes, for I have been there many times. As the juror spoke out the words, "NOT GUILTY," over and over...I heard my Lord's voice. "On the charge of murder and hatred...on the charge of gossip...on the charge of YOU NAME IT I'VE DONE IT...I find the defendant, Ashley Jennings, NOT GUILTY." Everyone in heaven and hell and earth knew that I was actually guilty; that I deserve life in prison on earth, and death in hell in eternity. But my Creator, the ultimate judge, changed it all. And because my God is JUST...the giver of sin had to be dealt with. Someone had to pay the price.

Maybe she is guilty...maybe she isn't...but I WAS. I am reminded today of the freedom I have in Christ. I am reminded that now I have a purpose that lasts beyond this earth, to share this freedom with the world. I am cleansed and I am redeemed. I pray that my entire life would reflect my gratitude.